Happy new year and all that drivel.

Ah, the new year, now almost a day old and I'm already complaining about it. that's just sad Ryan. I know why I'm complaining, I'm depressed and lonely. Am I lonely because I'm depressed or depressed because I'm lonely? I dunno, I think I just want to find someone that I can actually care about.

I know I go through this all the time, and then I come to a point where I say that I don't. the truth is that I do. I miss being with someone and all that other crap is just me trying to feel better about it.

I started talking to someone who seems pretty cool. I know that if she got to know me, or when she meets me, she'll realize just how incompatible we are. I could see myself falling in love with an image in my mind at this point, because I feel the need to be in love. Just not with anyone real. Too much chance of getting hurt. Why am I so afraid? *SIGH* Because I still don't believe that I am good enough.

Happy new year, it's just another day.