why do I bother, why do I care?

why do I bother keeping a blog? those of you who may come across this and wonder about my whiny meanderings are probably thinking just that.

I think it has something to do with thinking that what I have to say is important. If not to anyone else, then to the universe. Sometimes we have to just spill these thoughts out there to be a record of this point in time. What did people think, why were they so whiny? what minutae of life are they droning on about on this day in that year?

Ok so actually I don't think it's important even for that extent, I do it, because I have to get these things out.

been so bored this weekend. That's not because I have nothing to do, it's because I want to do none of it. I really should start on my work work, but I was just thinking of getting some brownies and that takes priority., why? because I said so.

I've been really kinda sexually desperate lately. I really think I need to get laid. I think that would calm down all of the needs in my head. I wonder if I know anyone who wants to be friends with benefits? probably not, either they don't want to have sex or they'd get too attached. I need someone that either I can get attached to back, or someone who just needs a shag. I know this kinda goes against what I've been saying lately, but biology is a funny thing. When the chemicals in my body react to certain stimulus, I need to get it on. Although there really hasn't been anyone that I could have sex with lately.

for those keeping tally of such things, 19 emails sent on match.com 3 received, no second emails received. 2 winks received, about 30 sent. This is the kind of thing that makes you want to wrap your lips around a revolver. But I'm not going to let it get to me. Bitches of the world unite.Just to piss me off.